I’m hopeful for a world with more
love, acceptance, and compassion for others.
“Uncle Linc?” Kadi prompts.
“You remember the day I wanted to ask you a question, but you had to go training with Jabber Jaws?”
I laugh out loud. Best nickname ever. Jabs is gonna never live this one down.
“Can I ask them now?”
“Sure. Do you want to go in another room?”
Kadi tilts her head, considering. “No. I think here is okay.”
She takes a seat across from me at the breakfast table. The table is no more than a very long picnic table with long moveable benches.
“Ask away, Tiny Dancer.”
She smiles at that. The kid’s barely seven and she dances like a pro.
“The other day, I saw you and Uncle Ethan kissing.” She quickly turns to her dad, Jace, and says, “I swear I wasn’t spying.”
Jace nods an okay and, holy fuck, just what has that girl seen? More than a few of us shift uncomfortably.
“Mommy Summer says you’re only supposed kiss like that if you love someone a whole lot.”
“Do you love Uncle Ethan a whole lot?”
Well, fuck me sideways. Except for Ethan choking on a bite of waffle, not a sound can be heard. We haven’t even had much of a discussion. I pat him on the back, so he doesn’t choke. We just got used to saying, “I love you”. It’s not awkward or weird. Why would it be? We’ve been in love with each other for years, though we didn’t say it much until I moved here. I don’t know why.
Maybe just in case we’d never be together.
I run a hand over my face and chuckle. “Nothing like putting your Uncle Linc on the spot, huh?”
She just stares at me. Waiting for an answer.
“Of course I love Ethan a whole lot.”
“Like, love like you love Jesse or love-love like Daddy loves Summer?”
I give Jace a glance and he’s over there grinning like the tool he is. I point at him. He’s just been put on notice.
“Definitely love-love,” I tell her, looking at Ethan and giving him a wink. He’s next to me nervous as fuck, not knowing whether to laugh or cry. I hope the wink set him at ease. He hates being in the spotlight.
“So… how does that work? Can two boys get married?” she asks.
“Lord have mercy on my soul, this kid,” I mumble as I drop my forehead to the table and roll it back and forth.
She pushes my head up with her tiny hands, pulling my skin and hair back. Jace laughs out loud and Summer coughs to cover hers. The rest of the family, well, they’re trying not to be loud, but I can hear them laughing.
I sit up and look down the table at them. “At least Summer had the decency to try to hide her laugh. Fuckers.”
Kadi looks at me with dollar signs in her eyes, and I point at her.
“No way, kid. That’s a freebie. You’re asking me some pretty hard questions here. I get some freebies,” I tell her.
She shrugs. “But you didn’t answer.”
“Yes, two men can get married. They just adjusted the law a few years ago,” I tell her.
She climbs up onto the table top and sits cross-legged in front of me. Just staring. I don’t want to know what’s coming next. This kid kinda scares me.
“If you love Ethan a whole lot and he loves you a whole lot, why aren’t you married?” Kadi asks with a smile.
Ethan spits his juice out and it hits Jace in the face. Serves the fucker right for letting his girl keep on like she is.
“Aren’t you just full of questions today,” Lucy asks with a snicker.
Kadi nods, but it wasn’t even a question. She’s the one who has all the questions.
“Kadi, we just haven’t talked about getting married yet.”
“Well, why not if you’re in love? Weddings are romantic. I could be your Best Girl—you know, instead of a best man.”
I can’t help but laugh. She’s relentless. “When the time comes, Tiny Dancer, you’ll be my Best Girl. I promise.”
Ethan’s still choking on the juice he swallowed wrong at the word “married” so I pat him on the back.
Who can blame him? I’ve been keeping things to myself, keeping him at a distance, and he really has no clue how I feel about things, about the future. For that matter, neither do I. Looks like we’ll have to have a talk later.
Kadi looks at me with a twinkle in her eye.
“What about babies?”
“Fuck this. I’m outta here,” I mutter, getting up and leaving the kitchen. I hear everyone laughing behind me. I turn and meet Ethan’s gaze. He’s smirking in that sexy way he does, and I smile back.
“That’s a freebie, Kadi,” he tells her, and I send him a wink before I head to the gym.
Holy fucking hell. Everyone’s worried about Kiki aka the She-Devil. Not me. Hell no. I’m more worried about Kadi the Inquisitor. That kid. She’s going to be the death of me. I know it
I’m going to warn you now… Refrain isn’t like any other book I’ve written before. It’s mostly Ethan and Linc, but you also get a touch of Summer, Sera, Cage, and even Damian.
The Rockstar storyline still has a lot of open threads that I need to carefully close off and tie with a pretty bow… or a bomb or bullet. No lie… there’ll be some tragedies. It’s not all glamour and gloss now that other “families” besides just the Russos and Manzinis are involved.
Linc and Ethan’s Story (m/m romance)
RELEASE DATE: July 22, 2019 <- Corrected
As a child, I trusted no one.
Then I found my best friends.
They gave me a family and saved me from a life of abuse that still has me messed up.
Then one of those best friends captured my heart.
Lincoln, tough yet tender, a walking contradiction.
He loves me too—flaws and all.
He’s the most patient man on the earth and understands my PTSD.
What he doesn’t understand is why our being intimate makes me feel “dirty”.
He’s not one of the men who abused me and he’d never hurt me. I know this. I believe it.
Still, the “dirty” creeps in even though I know what we do together is anything but.
He’s here now and he’s going to stay.
It’s time for me to talk to someone professionally.
I need to shed my unhealthy past in order to have a healthy future with the man I love.
If I don’t, I just might lose the best thing that’s ever happened to me—and there’s not enough therapy in the world to get me through that.
If you’re concerned or passing this up because it’s a young adult, I’ve heard more often than not that while the readers aren’t normal readers of YA romance, they thoroughly enjoyed these! Take a chance and give ’em a read!
“I will admit I was hesitant to read this as I normally don’t read YA, but since it’s Anne Mercier I just had to. It’s much different than her other books, but just as good. As with all of Anne’s stories, you get hooked from page 1 and the characters come to life.”– Kathy, Amazon Reviewer
Books 1 and 2, The Way Back To Me and The Way With You, aren’t available for purchase at this time but will be very soon! I’m currently reworking both of them and they’ll be released as brand new books, meaning there’ll be no KU update for the book as the second half book 1 and the much of book 2 are completely rewritten.
I’m hoping to have The Way Back To Me out to you VERY soon! And The Way With You next month.
“He’s intense. I wish this would be easier for you. I know how you hate this,” I say with a wave of my hand toward the paparazzi.
He shrugs. “I’ve been through this kind of thing before with the band, but us? This is going to get worse. Much, much worse.”
“Yeah.” Announcing to the world that you’re gay isn’t an easy thing. There are so many anti-gay assholes out there, and I’m worried they’ll hurt Ethan. I can handle myself, but my boy isn’t a fighter. He’s a lover. I rest my hand on top of his on the table and gently squeeze. “If they talk shit, E, let it roll off your shoulders. We know what we’ve got and we’re the only ones that matter.”
Click. Click. Click.
“This doesn’t just suck, it fucking sucks,” Ethan declares.
I nod. “I know, but it’s our life. We just gotta keep it in perspective and ignore all that bullshit.”
He nods in return. “I don’t want to know. Cage can deal with that. Celeste said she’d work with Marta on the PR if we needed. Lucy agreed to ‘loan’ her to us.” He chuckles.
I smirk. “She’s something. Lucy.”
He nods. “That she is. Perfect for Jesse in every way.”
“I like that she calls him out on his shit. That’s fucking epic to watch,” I laugh.
I had originally planned for later this year, but I decided to plot out the final three books (Refrain, Melody, and Strings) and write them back-to-back if the voices allow and get them out sooner. I don’t have dates. I won’t even muster a guess, but I’ll be starting on where I left off of Refrain (when I got blocked) starting Monday and I *hope* to have them out at a rapid pace.
Thank you for being patient!
PS: I recommend a reread of the entire series before Refrain comes out so everything is fresh in your mind. Starting with A Very Xander Christmas 2 all the way through Pulse have a lot that will relate to Refrain as they are on the exact same timeline. (Books 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, and 15). There is going to be so much to tie up in these next three books!